The songs
I have listened to at different phases have decidedly chronicled my life better
than any diary could have (to myself, most definitely) - had I kept one, in
which I may have penned down the sequence of events on each day assiduously.
I am very
well aware of the fact that I am very moderately 'successful'. Luckily, I have
been able to prevent smugness from overwhelming me.....
It is not
at all easy to battle mediocrity, which has always been an unassailable enemy
of mine.
Realisation,
at last. I have discovered that I was trying very hard to resolve imaginary
problems most of the time, while issues, which needed my immediate attention, were tucked away
conveniently under the carpet.
The point,
however, I am trying to make here is that I too am capable of having emotions,
such as euphoria, ' positive vibes' and so on. My posts have, unfortunately,
belied the real me. Of course, I am surely, but inadvertently, to blame.
I had
rather be known as an apolitical person than as a rabid supporter of any
political affiliations. I would like to remain like that for the rest of my
life. Otherwise, it wouldn't be me. Has any party and its cadre been faithful to its ideology in
India ever?
If some
people have dubbed me an inveterate cribber, am I at fault? No, no way, I
cannot apportion the blame on the accusers, as I know, they don’t have a
pointed grudge against me. It all happened because I was not at all forewarned
about this world’s complex dynamics. Therefore, I feel, that lessons in survival
go far beyond swimming classes, safari trips, or a trip on a ferry wheel, et al.
My teenage
years had made inroads into my middle age. But the time has come when they
cannot extend their reach anymore.
When
people are trying to sell me dreams, isn't it evident to them from my
countenance that I am quite cynical? If they have failed to notice that obvious
fact, they should realize that they are as not good at reading people as they
fancy themselves to be.
Being
pampered was my Achilles heel. It, actually, is counter-productive for
pampering is tantamount to showering facile attention on people. But I have to
live with it as there is no recourse visible in the horizon.
The true
heroes of India are the brutally murdered RTI activists who took on the mighty
custodians of the establishment. They fought alone, despite being very well
aware of the fact that their lives were not at all safe. Sadly, they are
forgotten instantaneously, a fact they could not care less about. Most of them
owed no allegiance to any party or any ideology. They have reaffirmed our faith
in fighting for our rights against all odds.
Am on Facebook, therefore I am.
I always prefer bluntness - no, not denigration - to all those
unwarranted cloying mutterings, which waste time and resources of one and all.
How does it benefit me in the long-term to be dogmatically affiliated
with one ideology or the other for the sake of defining my own self? It does
not help me to be in clarity with own self ultimately.
Why can't we put 'secularism' on hold for a while? Isn't casteism more
of India's bane than any other, when caste arrogance is rampant in our
country???
History: A very diligent enterprise to unearth quasi-truths and
chronicle them neatly
Existence
sometimes wears me down
Leaving me
with a despicable frown
Got to get a
smile back on my face
To handle
this situation with more than a modicum of grace
Know it isn’t
tough
Just need to
call the other person’s bluff.
Why is it that only truth can totally humiliate and liberate us
simultaneously? That paradox defines life, I guess. It maybe stating the
obvious, some people may aver... but ....
Life is a series of disruptions
